Trial

Open Deep In An Ancient Hawaiian Forest in a separate tab and listen as you reflect on the images.

I chose and designed these images to go with this music because of the deep and rapidly evolving emotions that are apparent while a couple is struggling to start a family. I photographed and pulled images from the internet to make these collages that I feel accurately represent the confusion, confusion, pain, doubt, resentment that comes from a couple that suffers a miscarriage.

The first image is colorful and exciting, it is the definition of fruitful both literally and figuratively.

The second image is a near twin of the first, but instead of emanating excitement, it is dreary and unclear.

The third image shows different people suffering pain, while a preacher points to Abraham faithfully passing his trial (the sacrifice of his son). Many times people think that when someone suffers a miscarriage that they need spiritual guidance and such, when sometimes it’s the last thing they need. Maybe they just need someone to cry and feel with them

The fourth image shows us how a loss, or a fear can cause us to cope in a variety of ways. These coping mechanisms can often drive people apart, when what one needs during a trial is to be together.

The fifth image is to show people coming together.

The sixth image is to show the ultimate healing, coming back repentant to accept the atonement and it’s ability to heal. The connection with God…

The seventh image represents the courage to try again after having been dealt such a painful blow.

The eight image is ‘hope’. I intentionally replaced the ‘p’ with a question mark. This was representative of the fact that even after going through this process of grief and ‘atonement’, it is hard to remove that small glimmer of doubt and fear from our hope for happiness.

I chose the song ‘Deep In An Ancient Hawaiian Forest” because it’s rhythm and pace vary enough to effectively convey the insanity that ensues after such a loss. The different tones helped to reflect emotions of happiness, pain and healing. I felt it was the most accurate representation of what the images reflect emotionally, and what such trials feel like.